The maker inside myself

 The maker inside myself

Sitting thinking writing screaming 

Sitting no thinking can’t think just write 

Overstimulate my senses

Music  writing no thinking 

Avoiding 

Writing

No thinking just typing 

Sitting typing not correcting 

Can’t stop can’t stop can’t stop writing as an exercise to continue

Writing as a tool to communicate

Writing as a means for life

Writing because I don’t know who I am anymore

I don’t know who I am if I can’t writing

Words moving quickly not looking at the words coming from the messy places in my mind 

Write everyday I said 

I lied 

Write everyday okay I can try

Write every day no write all day 

Continue continue can’t stop can’t look don’t correct don’t think don’t think don’t think 

Writing as an escape 

Writing as an identity 

Ask me questions about myself

How to convey a feeling how to find words without a thesarus 

How to be elegant how to be excellent 

How to convey a feeling

How to think 

No don’t think 

Who am I 

What is my identity 

Outside of this exercise I am a child

I am child and I know who I belong to

But inside this page I am lost my only need in life is to be able to fill out this page 

I hunger for words and feelings

I am not a child I am a word 

I am feeling 

Don’t think don’t feel just write 

*written March 2022